| rethink...slow down...rethink.. |
[May. 16th, 2006|12:41 pm] |
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| | Flaming Lips - Feeling Your Disingerate | ] |
I'm officially done with this year of school. Yet I end it with a sour note. Yup a big D for my photography. Thats 2 for the semester. Hopefully I get by on my GPA for I'm very unsure what I would do with myself. I think I would just call myself a failure and become very frustrated with the direction and how I treated my schooling career at Stout. I think thats what Charlie went through a lot when he was living on my farm house. I really don't know how he feels about anything really anymore. I've already noticed us drifting away, but still bond on sweet ROCK N" ROLL music. I think we all just need more Al and Blatz's man in our lives. It was really nice seeing that kid. It would of be a cherry on the top if Al would of walked through the door with his hair waving and that delicious bronze shimmering body sweating off oils and perfumes. Wow I'm gay. New note with that being said...
I just need something to believe in. I have nothing moving me forward or wanting to look ahead. Yeah I'm excited to see how we turn out and what direction life takes us and all, but I just need a light. Maybe it's just a change of scenery. Even Derek has been noticing it. I think our goal is just to get out of this state of mind. This dead end, muck of funk; the constant looking down. Maybe the summer will hold the truth and I will find my way. My way to being content with myself. My way of life...
Today I might shroom with Derek and Shaun. We plan on going to Hoffman Hills or somewhere nice to adventure. It should be fun and interesting. Maybe a step on the right foot...
Sorry Charles if we do them tonight without you. I'm a bastard son... |
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| blue bubble gum glue |
[May. 8th, 2006|02:21 am] |
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| | Pink Floyd | ] |
Just when I think I figured out things they somehow change. It's if my mind is having a battle with itself trying to figuring out what is right from wrong. It's funny that sometimes I see myself like the Diamond Sea for my only friend sometimes is the mirror. I find it very hard for anyone to understand me at times. Is it me that is only seeing this? IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE! This weekend I feel down and hit my head. Was it for a reason. To wake me up from my fairy tail life. To wake up and do something with myself. To pick up the phone...and call. The bump will be a daily remembrance for me. Feeling the sorriness as I rest my head on my pillow. I need to get up and stand on my own two feet. I have become comfortably numb to the world around me. I also felt my anxiety rise at Ashlie's birthday party. It felt just so strange to me, like I shouldn't have went. I was a shadow to too many and I actually don't think anyone knew or cared that me and Shaun drove home that night. I felt very singled out. Yes I was the only kid with facial hair I think too. I do like looking back and laughing at all the thing me and Shaun did by ourselves. Drinking the whole bottle of vodka, being the most fucked up at 8, stealing the birthday cake from Ashlie and running and hiding outside of the house eating it, decorating the cake into a cracker cross with an vegetable pizza garisment, playing soccer with a beer case, running around and trying to have Shaun tackle me, going into the Pulsar and listening to music while trying to get more hits and then driving home without saying our goodbyes to anyone. Yes it was what I call a hick fest. Disappointed how I see Ashlie probably not wanted to change from that. But than again I did pictured her being that good looking girl that gets knocked up and being a local for the rest of her life. She could have way much better. But again most wait all girls could have. And I was thinking about Shaun saying how I shouldn't be so picky about my girls, but than again why should I set my standards lower. And for that I don't think I will. I will live my life miserable and lonely until that one day it will fit. There will be a celebration with dancing bears and music that will bring the hair off my back to rise. (Thorton playing distortion while Kim just is Kim and Lee singing his poetry of perfectly chosen words)I shall sleep tonight with my mind in the clouds...thinking of Lollapolloza....I can sleep now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 26th, 2006|02:14 am] |
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| |  Alanta Braves Baseball | ] |
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| | Arcade Fire | ] |
I'm very unsure how I feel about many things. I don't think I've taken the time to work out my thoughts. Just if I could slow down time and contemplate them. Or maybe it's I have too much time on hand that I don't know what to do with it anymore. Or it's that I just sit and let the world go by. Too many questions and not enough answers. I'm a prime example of the Andrew Bird song MX Missiles. Things happen to me and I express no emotion. I keep everything inside, all bundled up, until one day I fall down. I chip my tooth and show to everyone that I'm human and have these things inside of me. Feelings, yes I do believe I have them. I've ignored these feelings inside and pushed them aside. I still poses them, but keep them to myself. Maybe I need a woman to open me up again and again pussy wouldn't hurt anything too. And with summer break just around the corner, it might be the perfect opportunity for me. But again I'm in no rush with these things for I feel people come into your life at times for different reasons. And someday all the puzzle pieces will come together and I will see the picture clear. Only until that I will dream of the woman of my dreams.
On a lighter note, I'm currently drug free! Day #3
Another thing on my mind is my relationship with BoYZS. Yes Turtle, very unsure what he is thinking in that brain of his. I think everyone can agree on this. And Paul, I wish at times he could be the funny boy in high school, but how can I complain. Paul is so damn cool. Wait ignore that thought, Paul is da MAN! Shaun, what a fucking NUT! I didn't know anyone who could like gay ass Sci-Fi movies so much. But I see his interest in music starting to come around so that is cool. And he is finally starting to see the bright side of having fun. I like to see that jerry curl burst out of laughing over nothing at all. And then Charlie. My after high school sweetie. I can see how everyone praises him so much. What a lovable guy. I do miss our conversation at times, but I have to share him with 4 other lovers. And my new recent butt buddy Derek. He likes green shoes. I think me and him will have to do a lot of photography this summer. ROCK ON! I can't thank you enough for introducing him to me Toby. And on that note how could I forget my Wabasha friends Toby and Kelsey. (Cross out Andy Wayne) I wish I could spend more time with the both of them, but find the distance very hard to keep in touch. Will have to get together this summer more often and hang out like we used to do. Yes Kelsey I do miss shoving McDonalds down your throat and all the other strange times. Can you say deer nipple.
Well it's late and should be trying to get some sleep for I haven't be able to in awhile. The dark circle are permanent under my eyes and I now have a new addition of blood shot eyes due to fucking seasonal allergies. Grr Mother Earth. I shall defeat you one day with a bazooka joe trading card one day... |
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| do da do da la la la super fag super fag |
[Mar. 31st, 2006|10:15 am] |
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| | Bob Dylan | ] |
Well I'm not sure how this semester will go now. I just want it to end and get it over with. It's such a downer just thinking of my whole schooling career. I have nothing to show for myself. Just a bunch of piled up hours of waste. And I'm not the only one in the boat that feels this way. I know Derek and some from Shaun. I think Shaun wants to go home and get pussy. And talking about pussy I think I will turn out to live the lifestyle of the 40 year old Virgin. I basically have accepted that I wont be seeing a Vagina or receive any physical contact from a woman for some time. I just will be living with tons of cats and plants and will sit on my front porch smoking weed out of a corncob pipe yelling random things at the kids that come by. The next thing on my mind is Turtle. What the fuck is up with that kid. I think I speak for everyone when I say he is a huge sexual creep. I can see him being the guy who trys to have cyber sex with 12 year olds and jerks off at the same time. I'm so surprised no one kicked his ass that one night. And than I'm living with him next year so I'm starting to worry about that. Hopefully he just gets kicked out of school and we find someone else to fill his spot. He turned into a worse Peter. Now I have to come up with a new name to describe those types of people. Thanks again! Ahhhh well weekend is now so hopefully I can get done with my projects and relax or go for an adventure on Saturday. Might have to visit Tommy or Toby and Kelsey. Or just have a epic adventure around the great state of Wisconsin eating cheese. |
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| Mom and Dad Don't Care |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|10:08 am] |
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| | E is for Egg Rolls | ] |
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| | Brian Jonestown Massacre/ Black Flag | ] |
Someday i will come up with a great idea or invention
until that day i will just sit in puzzle over my ways
I lack any motivation and find it difficult to push forward
I don't even know what I want for myself
my future isn't bright, I don't need shades
The days keep getting more unclear
Is school for me
Why am I still here
It seems as if I'm just following the heard
The more and more I think about this
the higher the bricks are being put up on my wall
and singling out myself from the world
I just need to get out from this town
and start thinking for myself
And toby I want to know your plans for the summer
I will be living in a house and there is room for you
I'm pretty sure you can get a job at Menards haha
And yes I had a diaper party...too bad you missed out
And yes me and this other kid were the only ones wearing them
I'm a big loser, I know
SIX PACK!!! |
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| spring break |
[Mar. 9th, 2006|11:01 am] |
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I don't know whats going on...I leave today for my trip to Prague and Buda Pest. Hopefully I see Danny Davito. That we make me smile. Also I would have sex with him and take a picture. SPORT CENTER ACTION!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|11:16 pm] |
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I need to slow down and rest for once. My body can't keep enduring what I through at it. Just looking at my eyes I can see what the body is telling me. The dark circles that seems as if they are permanent now. Day in and day out I see the reminder. The constant struggle I have inside my head wont go away. Debating if the path I'm taking is the right one or not. My flow of thought seems more spaced at times and just interaction between others. The awkwardness of people I feel. I believe I lost or just plain forgot all social skills. Especially with the other sex.
The trip for Budapest and Prague is coming up . My anxiety of what to expect and just packing for the trip is getting to me now. I kept putting it off and now it hits me that I will be leaving the country for the first time. Wait, riding an airplane for the first time too. I don't really know anyone else who is going too. Hopefully I can get a Brownie at Amsterdam. That will make me happy.
Mostly I just wish I could sit down with someone and just talk, especially with Ashlie. Last time I called her she seemed to be in the same situation as me. I wish I could hear from her more often and for her to go out and call me. Hopefully things will get on track and move more smoothly. |
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| Chop Madness |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|12:37 pm] |
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| | Don Vito | ] |
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| | The Brian Jonestown Massacre | ] |
I'm in my stage of evolution. I just died my hair and shaved my beard into man chops that would make Mr T look like a bitch. I think I will like it after a couple of weeks after my chops get fuller. Maybe I will go to an extreme and try to look like Anton. Just watching the movie Dig over and over again makes me happy. I basically have it completely memorized. Movies like that make you want to start a band. And on that note again, why do we never act on it. I think I will see if Charlie wants to jam out. Maybe we will go to Buetow's barn. Just jam out or maybe just paint. Yes I like the idea of Painting from Shaun. Maybe I will go to Penco and get more Art Supplies. Do the concept of me, charlie and shaun on a piece and having each do a section. But someone starts and then you cover there part up only leave 1/2 of it. So you play off of what they had and see what madness it turns out to be. And then the news about the bust on John and Joe and a bunch of Derek's friends just is insane. Just all of that over bud. There is more in this small city to worry about than a small drugs like weed. Very angry that we leave in a society that views it this way. Maybe I shall start some Riots. Ha that would be awesome. I will have to talk to Jordan the hippie protester about further plans... |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|12:04 pm] |
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| |  Captain Dick Mustache | ] |
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| | The Flaming Lips - At War With The Mystics | ] |
Things are well going better....They should be..building up for the ever so great SATURDAY!! Got the NEW Flaming Lips CD and I'm liking it. I know I couldn't wait another 2 months before it was released. Charlie you will be happy with the new direction. More guitar and less like soft bulletin and yoshimi. Total new direction. It has a nice on bouncy feel to it on the cruise last night. And Matt show...well it was nice. I liked the stand up bass with Simon and then the bow. Talk about HOT MOMMA ACTION! He totally got laid that night. But the after party at my place still leaves me with discuss. I felt taken advantage of the apartment. I think I will talk to Matt and see where he went off to. Lets just say too many High Schoolers. I didn't like the feel of the atmosphere, but preferred hanging out with Paul, John and Derek in the room. It just seemed to fit better. And then god CAN'T I JUST SLEEP IN!!! 9 AM!! Who the fuck wakes up at that time. I never get to sleep in anymore and I fucking worked all weekend. Going on little sleep and thats all I wanted to do. SLEEP and enjoy the time before I have to work again. I just don't think anyone saw that. And then eating all my food. I gave Shaun money just because of this. I would prefer if you asked than just go and take. It's not all my food and the apartment too. I was discussed with that when I woke up. Mostly just the sleep part. But on a good note I did have fun drawing on Cody. I just don't get that kid. He is the biggest fuck up I've ever seen in my life. And how young he is just scary to be messing around with drugs. And the probation deal wow. I don't know what to say to that. Just why would you put yourself through it. But it was worth every laugh seeing his fucked up face in confusion of what was happening when we were drawing on him. I almost pissed myself at times. And then whats really been on my mind was Ashley. Yeah It's been awhile and I don't know what direction things are in. I started talk to her again. Yeah I just stop talking to her for a month. I actually think she was hurt by it. But she just sees me wasting my life with pot probably. I don't like her view on weed. But she has her reasons I guess. I don't think I've ever been that dumbfounded in my life. I told her about Matt's show and told her to stop by. Then when I was walking to my car after the show the next building down she was eating with her roommate. I was mostly in shock of what I witnessed. I think I actually just stood there for 5 seconds in shock. I'm really not sure on what to do about it. It's just so fucked up I'm not sure if I can explain the whole situation. I think I will take a little break from smoking. Get my tolerance down again. Just not as much as it has been. Clean things up and get my head on straight. And I'm starting to get more excited with pottery. The pots are getting smoother to make and now I'm playing around with different styles. And I have to go to the lab today and develop my black and white photos. Excited to see how they turned out. Well nap time for me, then work. It's going to be a busy week. |
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| Jimmy Butt-A-Hole |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|03:59 pm] |
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| |  You my Nigga? | ] |
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| | The Beatles - For No One | ] |
I'm very unsure on how I feel towards things. At times I wonder if i even understand true emotions and feelings. It's nice again with just me. Shaun went home this weekend and I feel it's a perfect time to have my space again. It already has gave me some space to think. I've been thinking a lot about life. Currently I feel like I'm just wasting the days doing my daily routine. Nothing has really inspired me. Yes toby I'm not lazy, I just feel that I'm not motivated enough. Office Space is my life. The only thing that really keeps me going is the nights hanging with the "BOIZS" (trying to be ghetto; Me so white). Watching Porn with Charlie and Derek would be a highlight. Wow. WOW WOW. That was out of control. Just thinking of it makes me smile. But than I can't keep going with the FUN every night like it has been since Christmas. And recently it has been to insane amounts. But I haven't been missing classes. I'm so impressed with that. I may not be functional during them, but I'm making the effort to go to them. I'm just really unsure on things. I don't think anyone will be able to understand my reasoning. New MUSIC yes I need some. I hit a wall on my daily downloads. And yes Charlie if your done with that book I would like to read it. Thats what I need new music and a book. New music always makes me happy. |
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| All Gay on the Western Front |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|04:16 pm] |
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| | Vox Vermillion | ] |
Why am I even going to school. For what reason do I have to still go. None. Nothing comes to mind. I'm still going through the motion of what is view as acceptable. The endless struggle I have decided what to do with my life. Each day feels like a waste. I need to find meaning or more new friends. Some new light! Changes things up. Maybe I will come out of my shell for once during class and be somewhat of not a robot and show the real side of me. The side that my friends see. The happy spontaneous UPS man that somewhat lost his mind on the spring break trip with MTV and Carson Daily. But I have been putting this off like many things. Just set it aside and forget about it. Maybe just maybe I need a day of rest. I haven't been getting much sleep and love the comfort of naps and just laying around in bed. Girls! Girls! Girls! I'm not talking about XXX rated porn, but that might be the piece missing. I will go back and state my pie chart. It goes to show since first semester last year we have not recruited a single girl. Is our group that pathetic. But then again I enjoy and look forward to our smoke sessions in my room. I don't think I would trade a single person. The core of Paul, Charlie and I have stuck together. And now the introduction of Derek. I see Turtle slowly growing old of the routine and has been for sometime. And now he has been pushing smoking and drinking more. I don't think I will go with him to pick up the Blueberries due to the fact that I'm very excited for the Arcade with Charlie. Only if Al was still around. I miss that kid. I miss the time with him and Charles. And then party with 40 year old!! This might be the weekend I need. |
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| Danny Davito Look-A-Like Action Figure |
[Jan. 29th, 2006|01:34 pm] |
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| | The Hold Steady | ] |
Never Again....Never Again
Meat Head at Stout - 99.9%
Cool Kids - .1%
It was nice with a change of scenery but again faced with the usual "Peter's". But this time the Peter's had some black guys. Wow talk about diversity of losers. Haha. And does muscle get cancel out or get eaten up by new muscles being formed. But after the whole try out going to a "party". As in "party" I mean where there is no room to more and just the girls dance to stupid Rap Music that makes my ears puke. Me and Paul headed over to Mitch's house to see what was up. Well ended up with more than what we expected. 5 minuets after we got there my brother just fell flat on his face on cement. He got a pretty decent cut on his forehead. Then worried about him maybe having a concussion me and Tk had to take care of a dead fish that was very ignorant. Finally we left and headed back to my apartment where I packed a massive Double Dragon. Ahhhh how quick I felt at easy with everything. But Paul what a cutie. I'm really glad I met that kid. He is just THE GREATEST MAN ALIVE. Ohhh and what was really funny was when Paul asked Laura why she hated Bush. She probably even spells his name with a C in it. She had nothing to back it up. NOTHING!! Just the usual line of ahhh errr FUCK...hahah Crack. You get my picture if you have ever met her. But the system will take it's role and she wont be going here, so everything will be good. It was just so funny how before in the day I talked to Paul about how she has never said anything remotely intelligent and then it was proved. Ohh and the night before when her friend Kayla sat by me and basically passed out on me. Ekk! Awkward. But I couldn't stop laughing when she fated when she was passed out. I just looked at Charlie sitting next to me and bursted out laughing for minuets. I had to go to my room to get a hold of myself. And then Charlie. Damn why can't that guy be a hot momma woman. I'm really excited about a house next year with me him and Paul and whoever else. Maybe even Al which would be pure F.U.N. in a can. But this month has been one hell of a month. January is not my Month at all. One thing next after another goes wrong. But next month will be my month. It's Black History Month!! |
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| KFC Honey BBQ Condom |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|03:23 am] |
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| | Sondre Lerche | ] |
I ponder over a question in my head. What would my life be like if I would of meet him earlier. He is god, the messiah, the brain. I have so much respect for him and he amazes me with all his knowledge and his magically hand. I feel more like a person because of his presence. A more whole person with different views. He pointed me in all the right directions and is aways one step ahead of me. Dig was the icing on the cake and just thinking of all that facial hair gives me goosebumps. And the thought of a band. Yes, we need start acting on this thought . But that is more of a summer thing if we do get a house with Paul. Just thinking of jamming out in a garage gives me wood. And on that note I would like to start learning something. Any musical instrument. Yes maracas. I could be the guy super fucked having people put random things down my butt crack. But for new years. Yes we must get the whole gang together in the madness. Lofink told me he was goign to be in Menomonie so he will pass out at my place this time is the deal. Just all the good memories from last year...wait I need to be refreshed on those. All that I remember is beer flying everywhere and jumping around during the ball. Then leaving Gabes and getting a bloody nose in the truck of Amber's car from Al and then going to Lofinks to end up smoking for the first time and seeing Charlie's most awkward face with Alison. I still remember Charlie. Then waking up to Lofink's dad giving me a phone on a couch that held half of my body. Then going to Perkins with Al and Toby to get a plate of toast and water and then going to McDonalds getting 4 waters and 4 apple pies. Then sleeping the rest of the day. Ahhhhh I heart you New Years. So for this year we need to get everyone together. That means people that we haven't seen in awhile. Yes Todd would be nice, but I'm not sure if he would enjoy it as to War Craft. But Kelsey, Toby, NO ANDY WAYNE, Al, Chelsea, Waller, Nikki, Filipa, Tape, and whoever I left out. I think maybe starting at my place and ending up somewhere. Maybe the red towers?? Maybe sleeping in the car wash. Who knows?? But I'm up for anything. And that would include anal with a backwards spider monkey on sale at Sears. BHS 04!! Woop Woop |
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| moldey sandwhich dick |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|01:43 am] |
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| | Akron/Family | ] |
With finals being over and this year almost I look back at this year. Wow ummm what did I do with myself. Oh yeah.... puff puff drink puff puff drink drink drink sleep sleep work work class puff puff drink puke. The year of dazed mind warping adventures with Al and chief Chuck. What ever make me turn into this monster? Now I can see the group influences growing on others, as if it's a tree. Do I really want this to be happening? Is he ready for going into the deep end? To go on the other side of the fence. We hype it up so much and maybe even pressure without knowing it. At times it doesn't seem natural. To taint the lips of the innocent with clouded mind and lungs. But than again why is it right for me? Or for anyone? Who is the one to say it's right and wrong? It's an individual choice. And what you do with or what not with that choice will shape you. The experiences CAN make you a more round person or FORCE you down a dark tunnel. At times I see myself going down that dark tunnel. The "Reefer Madness" make everyday life seem boring if your not "high". Your senses are not as tuned in. In fact I can't remember a single time that the group hasn't been stoned. And the thing is I can't place whether or not I like that or not. The drug is for music junkies. Enhancing everything to it's full potential and then some. Like when coach would tell you to go 110%, well weed does that everytime. Right now I have that idea of maybe just smoking. It would be the icing on the cake. It's just so peaceful in my apartment alone. After the long day today it would be nice. Holidays and how I hate them. To me the holidays is a time when you are forced to hang out with people while wearing gay ass clothing and have fake conversations. Yeah maybe I would like the Schlough side of the family if I didn't have to put on a false image of myself. Just that alone will wear oneself out. But it did make me thing again about my goals in life, and one being college. I don't even want to know what my gpa is going to be. All that I know is it's not going to be anything proud of. But if I pass Econ I don't care what I got. I just don't want to take or even hear any econ related terms. But I'm excited for next semester. I actually have some interesting classes. Okay it's a stoner schedule. (photography, art metals, ceramics, stats, art history, go-more program) My new year resolution will be to concentrate more on school and go to most, yes MOST of my class til the end of the year. Hopefully that one holds through. If not I will go with B.) More Concerts. |
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| Oh MY! OH NO! |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|11:36 am] |
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Reading old entries between class was very comforting. Remembering all the good times from the summer. Oh how I miss the Boys of Summer. (Alexio, Charlie, Toby)I don't think anyone could ask for anymore. But God sent it, I signed for it. I haven't wrote for a long time. There has been a lot on my mind lately and I need to vent it. I need a change. A change for good. Anything will do. Maybe I just need to take another break for awhile, but I find it hard to do. How I always tell myself this, comforting myself, feeling good about oneself. I seems like I hit a wall. Literally a wall and I'm starting to fall. It's coming around the time for finals and I finds myself not going to class again. On days that I have nothing else to do but class and I still can't make it. Is it that hard to wake up and realize what I'm doing with myself. Nothing. Thats it, I haven't been doing anything besides listening to music, smoking and drinking, plus the amount of food. I think Taco Bell knows the usual for me now. (cheesey gordita crunch, 1/2 pound barrito, and code red). The code red is key! A must have! But I found myself starting to get closer to derek now. We have been talking more on a personal level. We smoke and just chill and enjoy getting the stress off. Then play unlimitied amounts of DOA2. I'm getting back to my level of gaming now again. Soon I will be better than Derek. Someday..I will defeat him. Until then it will come down to the end with Derek winning with a cheap move. Also I had a nice conversation with Paul last night. Didn't see us getting as fucked up as we did, but it was still nice. Thats what I miss most. The conversation. Lately all that I can think of is what the fuck did I say last night and how much food did I eat. It's if I'm split 50 50. Being torn at the seems. Their isn't much thread left. Which direction do I take captain? Also it doesn't help about my situation with Ashlie. But I will call her X.(Reminds me of the great Ben Kweller). I can't get over what my status is with her. I hate crossing those fine lines too. Why can't things be black and white and not grey at times. But I guess thats the beauty of life. I haven't spoken to her inawhile and for reasons I don't know why we haven't. I know we are both busy working all the time and not having a phone for a month, but I do miss laying around in her bed. Having the conversation that made me warm. Damn the weather. Now I can't go for a drive. Maybe a snowman or fort will do the trick for me today. |
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| Whos the Boss part 3 |
[Sep. 23rd, 2005|11:38 am] |
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| |  Mommy and Daddy | ] |
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I North will always prevail over those sally wagon negro loving Southerns. Abe and Hamilton vs Kernel Sanders and slave. Sometimes I impress myself of the ideas I can just come up with. The Boys are back in town!! And we drop it like it's hott. After much debate I still can't figure out why the fuck the "PIE CHART" that I came up with is still like it was last semester. Come on GUYS! But I guess we are not the norm of any slutty Stout chick around that go for the "PETERS". Like having having no brains is "IN" now or what. Hahaha Yeah man I'm Like Cool man. That was a quote from Peter. But my goal is and will happen. THe "PIE CHART" will come back around. I have a feeling about this one. Yes TEAM AMERICA. God Charlie why the fuck do you have to be a dad now. Yeah i know I might be 8 months pregnant, but that is not the point. It makes me smile that you are finally on track again now, but it would be really nice if you were still going here. The dude "PIE CHART" is only 3/4 now. But again this way is not you way. I would love to live with you out in the middle of nowhere and just lay around all day doing nothing and fucking around. Well only if it was me you and Al. I think I wouldn't need Vagina to keep my mine from going insane from my Terminator DICK. I will be back. BABY. And you have to work on YOUR BIRTHDAY. BUT I WILL MAKE SURE WE WILL DRINK AND SMOKE DOUBLE FOR YOU!! Ahh the apartment has been really helpful for the guys night out, but it dooes have it's let downs with not knowing anyone. But no more Peters it a blessing that money can't buy. I think I will just hang out around the dorms Saturday and try to recruit some people. To show them a side that they haven't seen or thought of. To get them away from the norm of society. But than again it's very hard changing someone life like that. But hey I do have a penis and if Martha Steweart can do it, Fuck I can do it to. GO BHS FOREVER!!
ps - I got some new cds charlie and I WANT SCRATCH ACID NOW |
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| Eslut |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|02:39 am] |
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I bought an iPod tonight!!!!!! |
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| Dr. Phil |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|02:13 am] |
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Hello America. I'm Doctor Phil. Yes you may remember me from Oprah, but now I have my own show that tells woman that have lots of kids that she has a loose vagina! Take those hard hitting facts America! Haha You hear that one about Helen Keller. How did her parents punish her? They would more the furniture! Oh stop it, I'm going to catch Aids or black man disease. Don't mess with Texas - George W. Bush Jr. He likes the cock more than I love Jeffy Dean Sausage. Kallie has her cunt pierced. Oh and how can you forget Al's hit at fame with his noises to Star Wars. Oh they make me so wet Doctor. Please prescribe more to my vagina. Oh these is a take from a chessey 80's porno. How so Keith Jackson. God I can't believe I typed that Kallie has her cunt pierced. Wait! Now that twice that I wrote that Kalie has her cunt pierced. Ahhh wait again! That three times folks. You know what that means. The Intimidation ROund!! (THeme Music) TO the Pizza Shop. You now have to eat 3 million pizzas if your up for the Fear Factory Challenge. |
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| Hitch Hiking Blues |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|01:46 am] |
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Tonight, Tonight it was a different night then what I've been used to. Finally I've had a day of relaxation. It was strange at first, but I'm glad I had it. Had some time to get back on reading the book. It was so strange at the point in the book where I left off. The earlier chapters were entertaining, but the story about the christmas whore and his handicapped friend and hitch hiking got me hooked. The randomness and just plain funny stories reminded me of Wally and all his stories he told me of hitch hiking and being a hippie back in the day. It also got me thinking of what I'm doing with my life. I'm doing exactly what everyone else is doing. I'm a sheep that just follows the so called correct way of life. Go to college, get an education, and then get a job. I don't think I'm fit for that. I've been stuck in that path for so long. So before I'm done with college I plan on hitch hiking the great red, white and blue USA. FREEDOM!! I've always wanted to travel and have not done so. I've never seen the ocean for starters and that is just the beginning of what I wish to do. FREEDOM FEST is this coming weekend hopefully so anyone that would like to go to FREEDOM WISCONSIN and have a weekend full of FREEDOM come. Then Al said something about Valley Fair on Sunday or something. Not sure, but sounds like fun. But I think I will be quiting my job in 2 weeks so after that we are going on a trip somewhere before school starts. I don't care where we go. No plans just drive until we feel like coming back or run out of money. |
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| Bedtime Blues |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|12:05 am] |
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I smoked in the basement after work while listening to Pavement and eating Chinness. What a rush! MOM DAD I LOVE YOU |
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